BEBE
you keep say always you ask you ask... ends up.. also i as de la.. recently.. you think back and refresh .. haiz.. you say you wan make suprise yea i do feel happy de.. haiz.. but.. each time you keep on asking me to ask .. and you keep on like pushing to me.. you think i like it ma??? haiz.. i know my parents ... you ask sure they'll wont talk much ... but.. i guess you dunno what happen just now.. haiz.. sometimes i really wish that you do everything and dun let me frust or thing of anything.. you decide it... but.. when i ask you do ... did you??? haiz... you said you not enough money .. i already try not to use it.. and ask from you.. you said... i talk with my ex.. i tell you now... i already less talk with him.. even i talk also just a normal chat only.... haiz.. when only you believe and understand how would i feel??? sometimes i really dunno how you feel and your atitude,, just ... keep on change... haiz.... dunno le.. i'm really happy to be with you.. some of the certain time.. i love to see when you laugh .. when you smile.. when you sad or mad .. really making me so damn piss you know that?? did you notice that...???? haiz,,. whne can you learn to know more things and understand me??? i'm tired.. yesterday i cry just right beside you do you know ma//////????? did you really understand and ask me what happen to me this and that??? haiz.. guess.. you know yourself.. but i guess you also wont be looking at this bloggy then.. when i cant find some one to speak and deppressed here.. this my diary ... i told you for an ages. guess.. you wont look at it le.. to understand more about me..
LIFE IN COLLEGE
yup.. been selected as leader.. gees.. really freaking stress.. making me like a jerk man.. sorry guys.. i'm not a good leader which i cant lead you'll i know.. and i'm sorry to waste you'll time and making you'll down.. but .. sometimes really hard to make you'll to be gather.. soon the one that always ponteng... oh jin jie.. leg injure .. cant walk much... betty .. the only one that busy.. and work.. haiz.. cant say much .. yea she do a lots of jobs.. but.. en.. dunno why sometimes can feel that she's talking bad about me.. for wasting much time,.. and management.. gees.. felt like a little girl .. dunno le.. really damn stress man... haiz.. how do i need to gain they'll to get back hyper le.. haiz.,. useless de me.. sorry lle.. follow this noob and weak de leader...
LIFE AT HOME
day by day .. home cook .. mum always break those fucking promises.. always say no money this and that ,... now i already understand what my daddy say to me .. now i really understand a lots.. haiz.. just now.. haiz.. today .. i just ask a permissiong and tell them that i wanna go for a trip next week for 2days.. one word jau say.. from lou tao.. you no need study meh., you study and no study also no different de la.. haiz. say i "tuk si pian " den said this and that ... den i said that day is my b'day .. they'll already plan for me de... not to say that sin jam hou jau.. i wanna told them.. i haven book.. .den when i wanna explain,.. lou tao and mummy jau say .. okay stop.. i dun wan listen any explanation from you.. bla bla bla.. you study and no study also waste of money only.. haiz.. dunno le.. anything.. den mummy said b'day so big meh.. bla bla bla.. den i say yea la.. how.. haiz.. i got my own decision to go for a trip also cant???? c'mon already 20... why not?? and .. den mummy said .. arent you suppose to give a priority to family 1st.. in my heart is.. why cant you give me decide ,.. and you let me go aren't that makes me more happy and a present.. i dun need any present from you both .. i dun need you'll to remember my b'day i just need to go for a trip that's it.. mum already broke promise that i cant get a camera.. and now the advance.. you think i so happie when i go to school .. in fear.. cause the headmaster keep on ask about my fees how.. and the admin keep ask me how.. haiz.. felt like i'm the one who owe money.. really makes me feel so badly.. den.. sumor lou tao one word jau say.. " huh.. i also dunno your birthday is when and i dun wanna know...just forget it forget it" gees.. that was a huge .. that making me damn freaking sad and hurts so badly .. haiz. felt so stupid that i'm still at here in this freaking damn house.. i think sooner ... things going back like last time.. where i turn to emo and moody .. dun care.. or maybe i turn to another person.. who know's that time just now.. i really wanna run from the house .. just too much pain that i keep on staying in this freaking damn house..
