sadness

haiz.. really kinda weird mood right now.. really dunno what to do ... dunno do what wrong... haiz.. sad.. you said you today go pasar malam.. den jau .. nevermind ba.. tot you wan relax.. den i keep quiet.. haiz.. when back dunno why you like this,.. turn like so mad.. haiz.. ask you .. you jau said tired.. haiz.. me also stress and tired... atleast i still jokes.. and stuff.. haiz.. you?? even after dinner.. you like no ask no nothing.. wish you ask me some.. haiz.. dunno le.. eat so much chili.. that's why i vomit.. even i vomit,.. you only ask me .. okay anot .. den no mood.. haiz.. dunno.. take table give you do things..haiz.. you jau use small table.. dunno you... anything ba.. you jau mad.. those fucking face.. haiz.. how i wanna stand.. ask you thing ... wan help you not.. you jau no word... I'M SO PISS AND SOOO TIRED!!!!!!! really when i need you... you . haiz.. speechless.. even now you infront of me.. me and you .. just a friend those kind... haiz... guess.. you and me .. relationship.. no longer like last time..anything.... just tired... haiz..

i'm getting so tired

really need someone right now... haiz.. when i need you where you ??? haiz.. every night i'm hiding under the blanky crying do you know ma??? i'm sad and stress do you know?? when i get stress and you knew about it why you dun wan help me to release le? haiz.. why le????? sometimes i do feel kinda lonely ... felt sometimes i do feel like i'm single.. really .. dunno how to say le... i wan you make me happy also hard le... not make me more stress and keep on quarrel with you ar.. i dun wan this kind of life.. just.. haiz...

when you cant finish your homework... i put my things away and help you .. you did promise last time that you'll finish it.. so that you wont disturb me... haiz... dunno le... sometimes i really do envy others ppl.... really.. haiz.. dunno le.. cant we just sweet like last time.. i think you and me getting like so awkward.. and always quarrel.. maybe.. haiz.. dunno le.. cant barely smile this few days.. dunno how to say..

at home.. mum owe a lots of debt .. haiz.. aunty diana sms ask about cash... college jackie ask about cash.. haiz.. car need repair.. just i . i'm tired de.. i really cant handle this pressure... dunno how.. haiz... mum turn another person.. lou tao come home keep on nagging .. whatever i do the things also get scolded.. haiz..

in college.. only the assignment .. really dunno how to handle it my ownself.. unlike you .. i can help you.. sometimes.. i do feel so tired,........ now recently help you do your thing i cant barely do my own stuff.. i help you i hope you change .. do homework early.. you said you lost your file and sutff.. you know last time me too .. i lost my own file .. i find my self i do it ... my ownself .. no like you ask ppl jau can .. haiz... nothing ba.. you got into this also my fault..