really long time no update..

really .. although just one week .. no log on.. too many things happen de...

START ONE LAST MONDAY...
last monday.. we back like normal.. eat dinner with grandma... grandma & my aunt both
also stomache.. till when after dinner.. ussually we got play mahjung.. but that day dint play.. den in room got lou tao and grandma & mummy only...grandma ask .. about my gu jie thingy... den.. that time.. really in bad mood de.. so i sit outside.. holding my drawing book... wanna draw things but dun really wan too.. den ..till i listen mummy like shouting behind.. seems like with grandma.. haiz... only that i heard ''why you'll like this'' bla bla bla... den only know mum rushing out ...haiz.. den said back... when in car.. she said..grandma they'll all same... see ppl got money... and keep help the daughter only... haiz.... fuck it.. la...

TUESDAY...
another morning.. another fucking day... which is.. she tell whole wide world that gu jie do such things.. really hate it.. to listen too.. i'm not sure who's wrong... i dun care... who the fuck is wrong not my problem... i hate to be in your middle person of you both...


WEDNESDAY..
days.. getting more bored and alone.. cause.. my gu jie not here.. mummy busy.. alone in the office... feel so empty.. just like inside of the cage... cant go anywhere... missing those days with gu jie...we use to laugh and chat all the time..

THURSDAY..
day by day .. passing by... just like normal.. bored... and thinking what my mum thinking.. afternoon... got supplier came... till night... haiz...so cruel de mum... really dun really like when she say bad things about gu jie.. said gu jie betral her... wan thhe man over her... where by gu jie also dint do this kind of stuff also... haiz.. i dunno... really making me sick of it...

FRIDAY..
like normal... alone in office...till lunch me pui gu jie eat lunch... as.. gu jie pack her few stuff... really.. sad.. seeing her packing up the stuff... really sad.. feels like wanna cry .. but.. neway... i tried to hold up my tears by not crying in front of her... still laughing & chatting like normal... but... till night.. really so sad i cried alone ... too much things in my mind.. really feels so sorry to them... really feel so guilty.. that mum did that.. even gu jie got say to me that... grandma worried that on monday we wont going back for dinner.... haiz... really feel so sorry to grandma...on that day.. had dinnerr at yoelde... first time have this moment.... wanna buy ticket... unfortunetely... cant... too late full de...

SATURDAY..
nothing happen much... just a day where i suppose to have... enjoy what can i enjoy on that day... but seems like nothin gto do the day... cause.. i fetch bro and my bebe out together... went to cc.. since no more mmovie ticket...den at 4sum.. mum ask us to go back... haiz...back to cook...eat dinneer like normal day... nothing special.. just at night she got ask me.. what my gu jie said and did... i said nothing much.. pack things de...like that only...den went to my room start drawing...

SUNDAY...
woke up early ...eat breakfast ... den went to parede... play bowling... yea.. really long time... dint have this kind of family feels de... i really loves this moment...but... seems like i like more than that... which is one big family..at afternoon...i remember mummy said... you see your grandpa.. work jor so long .. now retired jor... only got100k sum.. see me.. me simply do one business also more than that la... den said wo... she that they'll stupid... thoose gopeng family... really so heartache when listen to it... haiz... she said... since all also wanna help the betralyal... own daughter.. okay find... den dun wan your son lo... your in-law... and your grandchild lo.. since you wan help her so much... damn it... haiz... really damn frustrated... listen this shit.. i really cant stand all this de.. accually she have no right to say all this fucking shit.. cause she own also like that.. still with the fucking man... I HATE IT SO MUCH... HIDING OWN FEELL... AND BEING SO SAM YUIN... TO LISTEN HER.. AND HATE MYSELF... because she said... we're family right? you'll support and stand my side right? haiz... STUPID ME...