*s3@m$ like making worst...

*yea.. just feels like trouble maker like pass... he ask what's planning for it... i gave some suggestion... but... seems... like he din't really likes it thou... haiz... dunno why... even... okay de... but seems like he like tense and frust ... really dunno why i got this feel... yet... even yesterday... i was desperate to watch the cyril.. cause the one doing things that something new... really dint appear and change number in front of ppls.. haiz... he ask me why dun see... tvb that show.. den i said i watching magiction.. den he replies back... know you wont watch this de la... haiz... who said i dun watch.. i'll watch later only de la.. one word that so harsh... den dunno why my stomach yao pain.. den heart also weak like that... den yao give lou tao nag.. why me so stupid watch this magic la.. why dun watch thatt... den said me you blind ga... dunno read.. den i told him la... i sure dunno read la.. he reply... if do this ar... sure live de la... damn.. how should i know... this year i only know learn to watch astro... cant denied... i know.. alll of you'll watch few years.. but not me la... i know i stupid la.. i know you'll like watch and know many things la.. one also like this... that wan also like this... stupid heart yao pain... damn it... dunno what i did wrong... always like this.. lou tao and mummy quarrel.. just because of the financial... why me become your bean bag wo.. chi sin de... i walk also pain... yesterday cant even barely walk upstairs.. cause my appendix that side suddenlly pain... dunno why... should be not appendix de la.. even got i also duncare... lucky the gal .. survive... even 4ddays broke de... really lucky de her... must be angel protecting her... wondering... when only ends all this... izzit this a test? why should a test should be like this... why so hard... sometimes i tried to ignore what my parents said... and dun listen... haiz... even previous day i see doc... haiz... really couldn't believe what my boy said... haiz... sometimes i really dunno what h thinking... haiz.... forget it... yao said defend... yao said she still my mum care for me... damn it... bla bla... thru thhis condition...??? what my mum did?? really hard and i really couldn't accept it... you not me.. how would you know and feels... really feels like our communication... getting worst... haiz... lack... i'm tired... throat there tired... i just wanna enjoy/... and wanna feel back happy from friends and loves... but... seems likee... fail from everything... maybe except from friends... loves??? really dunno... just like weather... rain & sunny... life really cant predict... life getting tougher.. and tougher...sometimes...help him find things and do stuff for him... but seems like dint really like it... dunno why can see it... true of false i already dun care.... i care... cause i love him... thou.. he like for at first.. later.. at side...haiz... really dunno what he thinking... and all.... even myself... stupid me... i hate myself ....