another sad day

yesterday night play mahjung again... lost few RM... keep scolded by mum... haiz... yesterday night make me felt like left out... dunno why... at night hide in the blanky.. tears start falling... out of sudden can feel the pain... just wish.. how good if ppl come and hug me... but... i know i still need to wait... gees... really wan ppl hug and lend me a shoulder to me.... reallly so tense... recently really dunno y i always cry... really too much pain i had de.... haiz.... worry my study... and works.... haiz... why life really so hard... haiz... i tried to face it... but it's really hard to do it...