really dunno why suddenly got this kind of feel... really too frust for everything aready.... whatever it happen let it be... life is like a game... once you cant handle it... you lose and being left out... family to me is nothing aready... each time at home also keep quiet... think i'm no longer like last time aready... in love life... aready like gonna broken into few pieces... dunno why... out of sudden i cant even feel the love that i had it last time... i know i give him a lots of pressure... but sometimes i do wan to let it go... maybe he could put more effort in it... haiz... like last time i get higher marks... he also upset... cause he cant think... maybe i think i give a lots of pressure to him.. sometimes i did think that...if i really leave him will he prove to me that he could? sometimes i really dun get und of him... dunno why...haiz... recently easy get quarrel and sad... i'm sorry... friends to me now is like water... it comes and go ... when they need help they'll find ... when they don't... they'll dun even wanna find you or anything... haiz... really din't know what's going on me recently... always felt so lonely... haiz.. who i'm i? last time i use to be make ppl happy and did smile a lots... but now... just sit at side and hard to face things... and less talk...use to be with a lots of friends last time.. but now... gotta face it alone... each time at office alone sometimes really do freak me out... cause i use to be alone at here... haiz... my life is like getting to lonelyness world again...haiz... just wan someone that can help me pass it.. haiz...i dun wan to hurt anyone aready... i had enough ... haiz...
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