HAIZ...

geees.... yesterday really so damn tired.. mornig feetch bro school... and get nag and blame in morning... haiz....when till night ... tot i might be better with the love one hanging out and try to get some fresh air... and have some enjoying moment... but yet... everything get worst than i tot... what to do... it feels like walking alone see things alone... time pass more slow.. and headache getting more worst ... after dinner.. walk and walk... only notice that yesterday whole day i forget eat my heart medicine and for the breath medicine too... that's why at night really so pain.. hiding the pain infront of him... guess he dint really notice... and know it... 1st we plan play bowling as we compete each other.. first game was so terible.. simply throw... still not a single word between me and him.. haiz... at that timw see his finger no longer wear the ring ... out of sudden i take off my ring either... not worth it... wearing the ring alone... doesn't really understand what's the meaning of it yet i guess..haiz... putting it back in bag... continue plays... second game got talk... atleast little fun and laugh inside me...accually.. that time inside ... feels like crying i guess...really so tired that kind of feels... but.. luckly.. after the bowling he did what he do... but yet.. dunno why still not really know what i really wan.. then we went to the eating place behind JJ... sitting.. looking at his bro and gal.. really so sweet... that time really wish that he could have his bro atitude taking care and caring ... and can give me those kind of feels.... but... haiz... dunno why... after drinking at there... sent me back home...den i decided to return back the RIng to him... that time... really dunno why i return back to him... that time my heart kinda heartache and inside feels like crying... dunno why... guess kinda funny man...giving back to him to keep it... back home,.. really wan to cry out... but really dunno why i couldn't lo... really so much pain inside ... really pain... really sometimes i do think if i become single how would it feelss like...again... me and him already 1year 10month... still like that... he was the longest relationship i had... my mind now it's like eveerything is mixing up... haiz....help me man.... really felt so sucks...right now... haiz... already did a mistake b4... i dun wan repeat again... letting someone go... tired of having this already...how good i could have a hug right now...