*tired of her

really so tired of being insult.. tired of being get blame .. tired of being get scold for no reason.. tired of being what i have being doing... tired of being be patience .. tired of everything..haiz.. really too tense of what she had being why she could beccome like that .. everyone need to obey her... soon.. sure a lots things happen in this company.. i bet on it... cause.. all need to care for her attitude... and try to tahan her thing.. haiz.. she always think that what she also right and she geng... haiz.. even today my gu jie also say .. "you also dunno anything ... cause you dun have experince how you gonna face in this thingy.. not all also same like her.. being so brilliant and talented... each person got own different way.. but your mum really forcing you so much... what also she say.. and decide... no support... dunno why your mum like that.. i guess soon me and gonna become like you.." haiz... honestly.. haiz.. really this few days almost wanna take a smoke or anything just to release tense.. but.. i din't do it.. haiz... really feels so tired... and keeping inside... even i speak out.. din't really help me release.. really so tense.. haiz.. why no one know what i'm going thru... and facing... you'll say jau easy... but.. me.. is the victim.. really hard to face it... what can't you'll und...cause you din't really happen to you... haiz.. i just need some time onlly... really feels so damn tired..this few days makes me feels like wanna do something crazy.. that involve blood... haiiz.. but luckly .. i can manage it... i din't .. haiz... really wan find a way to relax myself.. and make it better living now...