really worst day ever..

haiz...morning had a nightmare... about my boy.. my family... and accident... after wake... fetch bro to school like normal... eat breakfast... fetch maid back home... till home... change my cloth my stupid damn door lock me up.. damn it... i ask the maid push the damn door... she go push a little once i shout loudly said push la... push harder then only can open.. once reach at office get scolded by my mom... saying that rubbish everywher this and that... what the hell.. start with a damn freak in the morning... den later on... afternoon lunch break finally get the card... thee stupid post man really so dumb ... put the letter at my car... so damn sakai ppl... bring the letter go to the office... get my card to asking me to get my result... damn it... haiz... get my result only score 6c... really tears falling ... what the hell... study so hard... only get 6c... really so damn it... i tell my tuition teacher about it... she was shock why i can score so low... haiz... really cant stand man... really feeel so piss off of it.. even i guy which is no study simply do also can get 5c.. damn it... yesterday night... my finally say the truth that... since i came back from KL .. house getting messy and dirty... haiz... as if like putting the blame on me once again... haiz... really sick of being here in IPOH... damn it... really in my heart that time feels like telling her that " if i come back from KL i make a mess in house then i rather back to KL and you have your life here without me better... i rather back KL and have my life... without stress or any sadness at here.... i'm sick of being at here getting the blame and getting being scold innocently" damn it... haiz... really felt so regret back here wasting my time and energy sitting at office doing nothing... she always said that i'm stupid that i dint find things to do this and and that... i feels like i going to office is like a maid... do cleaning stuff mopping.. sweeping... and serve drinks... haiz... really sick of it... here badly .... really wish that she know what she thinking and doing ... i dun mind helping her or even get blaming from her... i just wan her do yo u really understand what i'm going thru... or i need some courage and support,.... not putting me here doesn't let me see the outside world...giving the impression to other ppl that.. i being pamper by my mum... i dun wan ppl see me like that... i'm sick of it already...