*rest day

atlest the day where no worries and no scold... cause... mum and lou tao travel... lucky.. do thing s as usual... den pui my gu jie out.. the first word she ask me is... how's her eyes.. i told her little swollen.. i ask her izzit cried yesterday? after quarrel woth my mum? guess what ... haiz... gu jie told me that ... she doesn't have a chance to speak out den my mum keep scold non stop de.. haiz.. den one word she also din't expect that my mum say that she very dissappointed of what she doing.. den she said that my mum go combaine the relationship and work together.. den she told me that.. while she was drive back home she keep on tears falling till back home till before sleep.. haiz..seems like gu jie and me are almost same condition... both also sick of her attitude.. my mum really over do and harsh jor... haiz..i saidd before.. if really wan to co-opperate with my mum that person should be a very patience ppl... haiz..really cant stand for it..den she told me that she also got talk about me... at office... said that you also cant force your daughter like that de ma.. suddenlly get scolded innocently.. and don't complaine about me.. cause me at office everyday... wan to how to get experience... how to learn... sit office take care of office? or wait for walk in customer? where got walk in customer? den many things le.. haiz.. haiz.. still thinking wanna work outside or with her... den gu jie said if i go KL many bad things happen... if i stay here work out atleast i got little freedom.. if work with her no freedom and more worst.. oh yeah.. haiz.. if i work out there..guess what my mom say what..'' if i work out there i need pay for my own insurance... 200.. petrol 200.. den 300 for my car loan.. every month i need pay.. haiz.. den if i work with her i only pay for petrol.. den insurance half.. loan no need.. so damn fuck de.. haiz.. i also din't say i wan insurance yet.. haiz.. so damn expensive.. dunno wan for what i also got medical insurance mai enuf lo still wan add so much... haiz.. you say what i should do... haiz.. whole afternoon think of this also fan.. gu jie soon also leaving company.. haiz.. dunno how my mum handle... haiz.. i also dunno anything de.. haiz.. den at night hang out with my bro and boy at jusco.. ate at sushi king.. den at jusco find some vacancy.. really feel like wan join barista.. but only got 900 only.. haiz.. dunno how le.. tired man.. think of all this.. why happen it to me de.. haiz.. go yao die dun go yau die.. doc said that i cannot over tense the more i tense the more bigger my neck.. because of the stupid sickness... worst to worst need opperate... haiz.. if i higher.. haiz... dunno how le.. really so fan...even my heart condition wasn't good either... haiz... need medication... haiz..